New Start

Hello charming people, 

Today i was thinking. Shocker i know. But what would i look like if i had a full makeover? Would i finally feel happy? Not that i am not happy, i know I'm not fat, ugly or anything, but just a new me. A new start. A fresh start. 

I have never believed i am not beautiful because i am, everyone is. Even the liars and horrible people. But like i have never actually felt beautiful. Im an average girl, normal weight, normal everything, just plain. The only good thing i like is my eyes, there blue. But i want to look different and feel different. 

I had a time where i was going though a break up, i didn't love him no, but i was very much so i like with him. But when we broke up it hurt, he called me loads of different names, said things out loud and to people that i am not proud of, spend things about me. I mean come on get your  head out your ass mate, stop being a twat. But worst of all he called me fat and that made me feel so insecure, so horrible and i couldn't sleep at night. It broke me. 

That is why i want a makeover, to feel beautiful. To look myself and feel myself. To feel amazing and not fat and a variety of other names that he called me. Because i want to be strong. 

I am probably not the only girl in this situation, many of others also probably feel the same. It common. And when it does happen we just sit around moping all day in our rooms, listening to sad music letting our mind run over board. But i want to change and i hope i will. 

-Anon

Stare Down.

Hello Charming people,

Have you ever had that moment where you feel like the hole world or in this case class is staring at you? Yeah, we all get them. Anywhoo, i have that feeling a lot, lets just say I'm not the most popular person in my year. I have one true friend. Her name is Taylor (Not so true, I'm not telling her name, I'm anon). She is an amazing person to me so strong. She been through so much yet holds such a strong character.

Sorry for getting off topic, anyway... in that moment when everyone just stares at you, are you one to just give evils back? or do you kinda look away and look as if your doing something else. Im the one who just stares back and would give the middle finger, looking at them as if they had murdered someone. Im a strange person. But when they stare at you, you kinda start to think have i got something on my face? or am i just that good looking?

Some times it ends out in a staring competition, like this boy in my class we end up having a stare down till one of  as smiles. Always ends up me winning as i am a miserable person.

I believe that eye contact is a very weird thing. Like you can tell how a person is feeling just by looking them in the eyes or how you could just stare at a person for ages, not taking your gaze off of them. Eye contact can mean a lot. For example when someone is not looking at you in a conversation you already know that they are either lying to you or just don't want to talk to you. Personally if they didn't want to talk to me i would rather they tell me, instead of making things awkward.

Had to get that off my chest you charming people.

-Anon

Hi, I Exists.

Hello Charming people, 

This is my first ever blog. The one where i tell you a bit about myself. For example i am a female, i enjoy reading books, burping at awkward moments and eating. At the moment i am half way though my GCSEs. I actually mean it, i have just done my english language exam today. I also found out that i start study leave very soon, which i can't wait for. Means more time on my hands, which means of course i have get a job and earn me some moolah. 

Some more things you should know about me are...

• The fake me - where i hide who i really am (a bit like now) but where i act like someone i am not. Trust me I'm not the only one that does that. 
• The real me- where i am trust worth, smile a lot and also very crazy. When i say crazy i meant crazy. 
• Last but not least the bragger. When i go on and on about certain things that make you look amazing and weird all at the same time.

But trust me when i say this... on this blog i will always be myself. The one where i talk about weird things that go on in my mimd. where my brain is always processing questions to ask. I'm just not down on planet earth okay. I was having a debt in my mind today about yogurts. Why are yogurts kept in such a small contain. For my experience of knowing companies i know it is cheaper to buy bigger than smaller, so shops might as well store yogurts in bigger packs, keeping them happy and us happy. So i now found out my new  hate for yogurts. 

Finally boy wise, I've actually had a few boyfriends and before you ask i am not asnwering questions about my virginity. But anyway i have had boyfriends some being loyal some not so much. I have been cheated on yes, not the best experience of my life, i can tell you that now, being called fat when i know I'm not... just not the greatest thing to be told. Anyway moving on i have no interest in boys much any more, i would much rather sit in my soft, comfy bed reading a book than go out anywhere. If a boy shows up out of no where swiping me off my feet ill jump at the chance but right now i wanna focus on become a graphics designer....or maybe an interior designer. i can't decide okay.

But any way my Charming people thank you for reading my first ever blog and i hope you enjoy.

-Anon 

p.s. my love of my life is Ethan, My apple computer...My pride and joy :)